Oreos for Breakfast: Nick BSB Fiction

Oreos for Breakfast - Chapter 24

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The Paperbag Princess & The Pumpkin Coach

NOTE: The visual A.D.I.D.A.S. precedes Chapter 24

From: Nick
To: Rachel
Re: I give up!
Date: October 21, 2001 11:49 PM

I'm just not going to get you on the phone, am I? Probably not. So we can resort to email for a while. I like the emails. It's nice to go back and read them again later when I'm bored and missing you and can't get you on the phone.

Just a few days, Rachel, and then we can be together for nearly a month. That is going to be amazing.

Anyway, I wanted to tell you about the show today. It was totally different than last night in NYC. Different crowd, different acts, just… different. I think it was good, though. I had fun. The crowd was really into us. Backstage was more fun, because I knew most of the people there, and wasn't scared to talk to any of them. I mean, Paul McCartney? What the hell do I have to say to Paul McCartney?

I might have fucked up with JC, though. Does he know that I know? James told me to tell JC hello- I'm not sure what that was supposed to mean… anyway, I mentioned Michael at some point, and JC is not a very good actor. He knew who Michael was, I think. He pretended to be all unconcerned, but I think he was jealous.

Dunno. Anyway, if JC calls James all upset, it's all my fault. Tell James I'm sorry.

So, how's Paris? Have you done any radio interviews? I love doing interviews where they don't speak English. You only have to talk half as much, because the rest of the time they're translating!

I should sleep- Sesame Street tomorrow!

Nick

PS: Oh, yeah, and I love you. That's a given, right?

From: Rachel
To: Nick
Re: Re: I give up!
Date: October 22, 2001 8:05 AM

>I'm just not going to get you on the phone, am I? Probably not.

Yeah, probably not. At least you're on the East Coast now. It was really bad when you were on the left coast.

>So we can resort to email for a while. I like the emails. It's nice to go back and read them again later when I'm bored and missing you and can't get you on the phone.

Yes, but I still enjoy voicemails. I like your tired little voice on my phone telling me that you love me.

>Just a few days, Rachel, and then we can be together for nearly a month. That is going to be amazing.

We've never spent that sort of time together when one or the other of us wasn't working. Do you think we'll end up hating each other?

>Anyway, I wanted to tell you about the show today.

I wanted to know all about it!

> It was totally different than last night in NYC. Different crowd, different acts, just… different.

More pop, less rock. I would have liked to have done that one, too, but we couldn't do both without just giving up on the rest of the European tour, and we'd already sunk a bunch of money into it…

> I think it was good, though. I had fun. The crowd was really into us. Backstage was more fun, because I knew most of the people there, and wasn't scared to talk to any of them. I mean, Paul McCartney? What the hell do I have to say to Paul McCartney?

Besides 'hello, Mr. McCartney, sir,' not much. I couldn't believe some of those people wanted to talk to me! Elton John and James talked for like 30 minutes!

>I might have fucked up with JC, though. Does he know that I know?

James says they haven't really talked about it. Just that it needs to be a secret.

>James told me to tell JC hello- I'm not sure what that was supposed to mean…

It meant say 'hi' to JC for him. I don't think he had any other motive.

> anyway, I mentioned Michael at some point, and JC is not a very good actor. He knew who Michael was, I think. He pretended to be all unconcerned, but I think he was jealous.

James and I find this very interesting. James didn't know they were in a relationship. Don't you kinda have to be exclusive before you can get jealous? So, do you think James should mention this to JC next time he talks to him, or no?

>Dunno. Anyway, if JC calls James all upset, it's all my fault. Tell James I'm sorry.

Darling, James is thrilled. He had no idea that JC cared! I guess that's what that means, right? That JC cares?

>So, how's Paris?

Was I in Paris? I have no idea.

>Have you done any radio interviews? I love doing interviews where they don't speak English. You only have to talk half as much, because the rest of the time they're translating!

Yes! Thank god I don't have to talk too much, because I am wiped out. Will your family kill me if all I can do is sleep when I'm there next weekend?

>I should sleep- Sesame Street tomorrow!

Say hi to Elmo for me!

>Oh, yeah, and I love you. That's a given, right?

Alright, boyfriend, you need some lessons in love letters. We did pretty good with our last bout of emails. You don't get a 'gimme' on the mushy stuff. I like the mushy stuff! Tell me more about my eyes. Tell me you can't wait to see me. C'mon, I'm waiting…

Rachel

From: Nick
To: Rachel
Re: Re: Re: I give up!
Date: October 22, 2001 10:14 PM

>Yes, but I still enjoy voicemails. I like your tired little voice on my phone telling me that you love me.

My voice is really tired today. And another long day tomorrow. But then weeks with you after that. That's enough to get me through anything.

>We've never spent that sort of time together when one or the other of us wasn't working. Do you think we'll end up hating each other?

Never, buttercup. Not possible. I can't imagine spending too much time with you. I think we're going to get really spoiled and when you have to go on tour again in December, we're going to have major re-entry time problems.

>>Anyway, I wanted to tell you about the show today.

>I wanted to know all about it!

Things like that are always better when I can tell you about it. Like it didn't happen unless I tell you about it.

>More pop, less rock. I would have liked to have done that one, too, but we couldn't do both without just giving up on the rest of the European tour, and we'd already sunk a bunch of money into it…

Aren't you sick of talking about money? I am. Japan is all about the money. We make a lot of money in Japan. They really like us there. And that's a good thing, lots of money, because we lost a ton of money by taking the tour down, but… dunno. It's starting to feel like work. It used to be fun. I wanted to go out and sing these songs. Now I feel like the songs are stupid and boring and why the hell are people spending all this money to see us? Who the hell are we? We're five guys who can sing, but we can't even write music. What makes us so special? Do these girls just like us because publicity told them to?

Man. Sorry. I'm way too tired.

>Besides 'hello, Mr. McCartney, sir,' not much. I couldn't believe some of those people wanted to talk to me! Elton John and James talked for like 30 minutes!

It's that gay pop star thing. Think Elton is jealous that now James is the gay poster boy?

>James says they haven't really talked about it. Just that it needs to be a secret.

Isn't that talking about it?

>>James told me to tell JC hello- I'm not sure what that was supposed to mean…

>it meant say 'hi' to JC for him. I don't think he had any other motive.

All right. I wasn't sure if that was a way of telling JC that I knew or something. I think JC was acting like he and JC were just friends. I mean, he didn't say 'did he look hot?' or 'tell him I can't wait to hold his naked body against mine' or anything like that.

Okay, I just freaked myself out there. I really don't need to think about JC and James having sex. ::shudder::

>James and I find this very interesting. James didn't know they were in a relationship. Don't you kinda have to be exclusive before you can get jealous? So, do you think James should mention this to JC next time he talks to him, or no?

Umm… Rache… I know you and James talk about this sort of stuff all the time. But I'm a GUY. The fact that I talk about relationship stuff with you is sorta amazing. Please don't make me talk about JC and James. Like, the gay stuff is weird enough. The relationship stuff is weird. But it's JC fucking Chasez! I can joke about the fact that he's gay, but I don't want to analyze his relationship (or not) with James.

Please tell James not to mention it, because then JC's going to think that I noticed something. Okay, I did, but if I'm not supposed to know that he and James are screwing around, then I shouldn't have noticed that he was jealous, right?

I'm in this whether I like it or not, aren't I?

>Darling, James is thrilled. He had no idea that JC cared! I guess that's what that means, right? That JC cares?

See above, Rache. I don't know!

>>So, how's Paris?

>Was I in Paris? I have no idea.

Yes, you were, and today you are in Belgium. See, and you thought it was bizarre that all I know from all my world travel is the inside of hotel rooms. Sucks, doesn't it?

>Yes! Thank god I don't have to talk too much, because I am wiped out. Will your family kill me if all I can do is sleep when I'm there next weekend?

Speaking of that… think you can change your flight from Miami to Tampa? I was talking to Vinnie and he said everyone was getting together in Tampa for Guavaween- it's this big Halloween thing. There's bands and lots of drinking and stuff like that. I told him maybe we'd join him there, and then you can meet all my friends. If you fly into Tampa on Friday, we can stay at my place there, then meet up with everyone on Saturday, and drive back to Marathon on Sunday or Monday.

>>I should sleep- Sesame Street tomorrow!

>Say hi to Elmo for me!

Sesame Street was so cool! They gave us a cool gift basket. I sent a bunch of stuff to Ally and Billy- they're the littlest kids I know. But it was fun, hanging out with the Muppets and seeing how they do all that stuff.

>>Oh, yeah, and I love you. That's a given, right?

>Alright, boyfriend, you need some lessons in love letters. We did pretty good with our last bout of emails. You don't get a 'gimme' on the mushy stuff. I like the mushy stuff! Tell me more about my eyes. Tell me you can't wait to see me. C'mon, I'm waiting…

Hey, maybe I like the mushy stuff, too! I don't see anything in your last email about my pretty eyes or how much you miss me!

I do miss you. Emails are good, but a thousand times a day, I want to call you and tell you something that happened. I miss talking to you. I really miss having you here. I miss your pretty eyes, and that smile that is only for me, and the way you giggle when I do something stupid. That makes doing something stupid almost worth it. And I really miss touching you, buttercup. Not just the sex stuff- although I miss that! - but just having you near me, or falling asleep with you. After Friday, can we promise to sleep together every night until you go back on tour?

Your devoted bunny,

Nick

From: Rachel
To: Nick
Re: Re: Re: I give up!
Date: October 23, 2001 8:12 AM

>My voice is really tired today. And another long day tomorrow. But then weeks with you after that. That's enough to get me through anything.

I do the same thing! I just keep thinking 'three more days until Nick…'

>>We've never spent that sort of time together when one or the other of us wasn't working. Do you think we'll end up hating each other?

>Never, buttercup. Not possible. I can't imagine spending too much time with you.

Awww… really? I won't end up annoying you with the way I steal the covers and have to talk to James 20 times a day?

>I think we're going to get really spoiled and when you have to go on tour again in December, we're going to have major re-entry time problems.

What are you doing in December? Why don't you come with me? ::fluttering eyelashes::

>Things like that are always better when I can tell you about it. It's like it didn't happen unless I tell you about it.

Totally. Which means that most of Europe didn't happen, because I'm too tired to remember it to tell you about it.

>Aren't you sick of talking about money?

No! Because I've never had it before. I'm still at the giddy 'we're making money?' stage. Did I tell you about the VW commercial? Oh, I must have. I won't bore you with it again… but they're giving us cars! I think I'm giving mine to Mom. She needs a new car, and I love mine too much to trade her in.

>I am. Japan is all about the money. We make a lot of money in Japan. They really like us there.

Of course they do, bunny! Because you're cute and American and blond. They just love that blond thing.

>And that's a good thing, lots of money, because we lost a ton of money by taking the tour down, but… dunno. It's starting to feel like work. It used to be fun. I wanted to go out and sing these songs. Now I feel like the songs are stupid and boring and why the hell are people spending all this money to see us? Who the hell are we? We're five guys who can sing, but we can't even write music. What makes us so special? Do these girls just like us because publicity told them to?

Wow. Just… I don't even know what to say, sweetheart. Should I tell you that you are special, or you wouldn't be doing what you're doing? It's not something everyone can do. You found the other four and together you've got what it takes to make great music and your fans appreciate that.

Or do you want to hear that maybe you're just at the end of the tour and tired? Or maybe you're happy today and you don't want to think about any of this.

I'm sorry. Email is hard with some things, because I can't see your face and figure out your real mood. Tell me what you want me to say, or just type away and vent, or tell me you need to talk about this and I will find a time to be there. Whatever you need. Just let me know.

>Man. Sorry. I'm way too tired.

They're really got you working hard, don't they? I don't blame you for being sick of Backstreet right now.

>It's that gay pop star thing. Think Elton is jealous that now James is the gay poster boy?

James says that Elton was telling him he's a wonderful role model. James feels like that is a lot of pressure. Especially because he's dating a boy stuck in the closet. If dating is what they're doing.

I think James is really falling for JC, Nick. Like, at first, it was just fun. And James says it still is. But I see something else there when he talks about JC, and it worries me. James hasn't been in a relationship since Michael, and I don't want to see him get his heart broken. I sorta know JC, and I think he's great, and I love the way he looks at James, but… you know him better than I do. Is he a good guy? Forget about the boyband politics for a second, please?

>>James says they haven't really talked about it. Just that it needs to be a secret.

>Isn't that talking about it?

Not really. It was that first time they were together, when JC told him he was gay. They haven't really discussed it since then, according to James.

>Okay, I just freaked myself out there. I really don't need to think about JC and James having sex. ::shudder::

I personally find the idea sorta hot. I mean, its my best friend, so that part is weird, but JC? Yum. If boys can like two girls getting it on, can't girls like boys getting it on?

>Umm… Rache… I know you and James talk about this sort of stuff all the time. But I'm a GUY. The fact that I talk about relationship stuff with you is sorta amazing. Please don't make me talk about JC and James. Like, the gay stuff is weird enough. The relationship stuff is weird. But its JC fucking Chasez! I can joke about the fact that he's gay, but I don't want to analyze his relationship (or not) with James.

Oh, bunny, you crack me up. ;-> I'm sorry for freaking you out.

>Please tell James not to mention it, because then JC's going to think that I noticed something. Okay, I did, but if I'm not supposed to know that he and James are screwing around, then I shouldn't have noticed that he was jealous, right?

>I'm in this whether I like it or not, aren't I?

Sorry, you are. You're right, James and I can analyze any relationship to death. But I'm a little worried about James right now, and you're the only person I know who knows JC.

>Yes, you were, and today you are in Belgium. See, and you thought it was bizarre that I know from all my world travel is the inside of hotel rooms. Sucks, doesn't it?

It totally sucks. I'm doing so much that even though I have free time right now, all I want to do is stay here in my pretty hotel room and write you email. We need to come back to Europe, Nick. You and me. Someday there will be a time when we can get a couple of weeks off together and we'll tour around and see all the things we've missed.

>Speaking of that… think you can change your flight from Miami to Tampa? I was talking to Vinnie and he said everyone was getting together in Tampa for Guavaween- it's this big Halloween thing. There's bands and lots of drinking and stuff like that. I told him maybe we'd join him there, and then you can meet all my friends. If you fly into Tampa on Friday, we can stay at my place there, then meet up with everyone on Saturday, and drive back to Marathon on Sunday or Monday.

Yeah… that's fine. I already told Lola to switch my ticket, and she's looking at times for me. Tampa is great.

>Sesame Street was so cool! They gave us a cool gift basket. I sent a bunch of stuff to Ally and Billy- they're the littlest kids I know. But it was fun, hanging out with the muppets and seeing how they do all that stuff.

Ally wants to know everything! She called me and was so excited. Did she call you, too? I gave Patrick your number to call.

>Hey, maybe I like the mushy stuff, too! I don't see anything in your last email about my pretty eyes or how much you miss me!

I suck, don't I? I do miss you, all the time. I could be having a fabulous dinner somewhere with my boys, but instead I came back here to write you email.

And you have the prettiest blue eyes I have ever seen. ;->

>I do miss you. Emails are good, but a thousand times a day, I want to call you and tell you something that happened. I miss talking to you. I really miss having you here. I miss your pretty eyes, and that smile that is only for me, and the way you giggle when I do something stupid. That makes doing something stupid almost worth it.

Is that why you do those things? Just to make me giggle? ;->

>And I really miss touching you, buttercup. Not just the sex stuff- although I miss that! - but just having you near me, or falling asleep with you. After Friday, can we promise to sleep together every night until you go back on tour?

Yes. We can do our best. Promise.

>Your devoted bunny,

Now that is cute…

Your besotted buttercup,

Rachel

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