Oreos for Breakfast: Nick BSB Fiction

Oreos for Breakfast - Chapter 24

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The Paperbag Princess & The Pumpkin Coach

NOTE: The visual A.D.I.D.A.S. precedes Chapter 24

From: Nick
To: Rachel
Re: Re: Re: I give up!
Date: October 24, 2001 11:25 PM

>I do the same thing! I just keep thinking 'three more days until Nick…'

Day after tomorrow for Rachel! I'm home now, as much as this place is home. Everyone else is settled in, but I've been on tour the whole time we've had this house. It sorta feels like another hotel room, being here in my place. I spent most of my time today in Aaron's room. I think I'm going to leave for Tampa tomorrow night and have all day Friday there in my apartment. I've only spent a few nights in my Tampa pad. I'm glad I have it today, but I sorta bought it on a whim. Tony and Vinnie and even Anna stay there sometimes. They've spent more time there than I ever have.

>Awww… really? I won't end up annoying you with the way I steal the covers and have to talk to James 20 times a day?

No, because I always get hot in the middle of the night, and while you're talking to James, I can be talking to my family. Aaron keeps calling me.

>What are you doing in December? Why don't you come with me? ::fluttering eyelashes::

I had breakfast with one of the guys from Jive this morning, and he offered me some studio time in December. For… well, a solo album? Do I want to do that? I said yes, because I figured you'd be on the road, and I could get a jump on maybe laying down some tracks for the next Backstreet album, but… I've got a solo deal. I'm not sure that the guys want to do another album for a year or two.

>Totally. Which means that most of Europe didn't happen, because I'm too tired to remember it to tell you about it.

Yeah, two days of press and I don't know what we did. Sesame Street. I remember that.

>No! Because I've never had it before. I'm still at the giddy 'we're making money?' stage. Did I tell you about the VW commercial? Oh, I must have. I won't bore you with it again… but they're giving us cars! I think I'm giving mine to Mom. She needs a new car, and I love mine too much to trade her in.

VW commercial? No, you didn't tell me!

>Of course they do, bunny! Because you're cute and American and blond. They just love that blond thing.

Are you going to dye your hair when we go there next month? ;-> I like blonds…

>Wow. Just… I don't even know what to say, sweetheart. Should I tell you that you are special, or you wouldn't be doing what you're doing? It's not something everyone can do. You found the other four and together you've got what it takes to make great music and your fans appreciate that.

>Or do you want to hear that maybe you're just at the end of the tour and tired? Or maybe you're happy today and you don't want to think about any of this.

I'm tired, Rache. Don't worry. I was just blowing off steam. I'm home now, and in a couple of days I'll see you and I'm fine. It's all good.

>I'm sorry. Email is hard with some things, because I can't see your face and figure out your real mood. Tell me what you want me to say, or just type away and vent, or tell me you need to talk about this and I will find a time to be there. Whatever you need. Just let me know.

I just need you to be here.

>They're really got you working hard, don't they? I don't blame you for being sick of Backstreet right now.

I don't want to think about them right now. I'll put it this way- there was no big good-bye scene. I left last, because I wanted to meet with Jive. I think the others were asked to the meeting, but they all fucked off last night.

>James says that Elton was telling him he's a wonderful role model. James feels like that is a lot of pressure.

You can't live your life as a role model. Believe me, I know.

>I think James is really falling for JC, Nick. Like, at first, it was just fun. And James says it still is. But I see something else there when he talks about JC, and it worries me. James hasn't been in a relationship since Michael, and I don't want to see him get his heart broken. I sorta know JC, and I think he's great, and I love the way he looks at James, but… you know him better than I do. Is he a good guy? Forget about the boyband politics for a second, please?

Rache… imagine that said in my whinest voice.

I really don't know JC. We're lumped together, but we're not friends, by any stretch. Whenever we are together, he sticks with his band and I stick with mine. I like Chris, he's pretty cool. He'll talk to anyone, and he's funny. JC is… quiet? I think he's shy. He's always nice, though. Justin can be an asshole, but JC isn't.

Yeah, he's a nice guy, I think. I've never seen him do anything mean. He seems… sincere? Is that a good word?

If James is falling for him, then he has to be a good guy, right? Because you've told me that James is very picky about his boyfriends, which is why he hasn't had many. I don't think JC would be a dick to him, but there is that little thing about how he can't TELL ANYONE. If it's something real, should he want to tell? I love that people know we're together. I love seeing you in magazines or on TV and I want to tell everyone 'Look at this totally hot woman. She loves *me*."

>I personally find the idea sorta hot. I mean, its my best friend, so that part is weird, but JC? Yum. If boys can like two girls getting it on, can't girls like boys getting it on?

Girls are prettier than guys, Rache. Guys looks silly naked.

>>Umm… Rache… I know and James talk about this sort of stuff all the time. But I'm a GUY. The fact that I talk about relationship stuff with you is sorta amazing. Please don't make me talk about JC and James. Like, the gay stuff is weird enough. The relationship stuff is weird. But its JC fucking Chasez! I can joke about the fact that he's gay, but I don't want to analyze his relationship (or not) with James.

>Oh, bunny, you crack me up. ;-> I'm sorry for freaking you out.

But yet, you keep asking me questions!

>Sorry, you are. You're right, James and I can analyze any relationship to death. But I'm a little worried about James right now, and you're the only person I know who knows JC.

Sorry I'm not more help. Because I like James too, and he deserves a nice guy. Maybe then he'll stop bugging you all the time. ;->

>It totally sucks. I'm doing so much that even though I have free time right now, all I want to do is stay here in my pretty hotel room and write you email. We need to come back to Europe, Nick. You and me. Someday there will be a time when we can get a couple of weeks off together and we'll tour around and see all the things we've missed.

I just found out that we have an actual day off in Japan. What should we do? They've got some stuff planned for us and the crew. Do you want to do that?

>Yeah… that's fine. I already told Lola to switch my ticket, and she's looking at times for me. Tampa is great.

You don't sound really excited about that. You called with your flight times and sounded… I don't know. Maybe you're just tired. Tampa's okay, isn't it? Is it too soon to meet my friends? Maybe we should just spend the weekend by ourselves and catch up.

>Ally wants to know everything! She called me and was so excited. Did she call you, too? I gave Patrick your number to call.

She is so cute, Rache. I talked to her for like 20 minutes, she asked me about all the Muppets. She's smart, though, she knows they're not real. She said Daddy told her that.

>I suck, don't I? I do miss you, all the time. I could be having a fabulous dinner somewhere with my boys, but instead I came back here to write you email.

I like that. But tonight, if you come back and call me, I'll be here, instead of working.

>And you have the prettiest blue eyes I have ever seen. ;->

::blush::

>>I do miss you. Emails are good, but a thousand times a day, I want to call you and tell you something that happened. I miss talking to you. I really miss having you here. I miss your pretty eyes, and that smile that is only for me, and the way you giggle when I do something stupid. That makes doing something stupid almost worth it.

>Is that why you do those things? Just to make me giggle? ;->

Absolutely. I always know precisely what I'm doing, Rache. I never fuck things up unless it's on purpose to make you laugh.

>>And I really miss touching you, buttercup. Not just the sex stuff- although I miss that! - but just having you near me, or falling asleep with you. After Friday, can we promise to sleep together every night until you go back on tour?

>Yes. We can do our best. Promise.

I am really looking forward to that.

>Your besotted buttercup,

So devoted I let you call me 'bunny',

Nick

From: Rachel
To: Nick
Re: Re: Re: I give up!
Date: October 25, 2001 11:33 AM

>Day after tomorrow for Rachel! I'm home now, as much as this place is home. Everyone else is settled in, but I've been on tour the whole time we've had this house. It sorta feels like another hotel room, being here in my place.

Wow… I guess there's something to be said for living in the same house your entire life.

>I spent most of my time today in Aaron's room.

I guess he's all moved in, then? How long have you had this house?

>I think I'm going to leave for Tampa tomorrow night and have all day Friday there in my apartment. I've only spent a couple nights in my Tampa pad. I'm glad I have it today, but I sorta bought it on a whim. Tony and Vinnie and even Anna stay there sometimes. They've spent more time there than I ever have.

Will you need to check with Anna to see where she keeps the sugar? ;->

>No, because I always get hot in the middle of the night, and while you're talking to James, I can be talking to my family. Aaron keeps calling me.

Aaron's right there. Why does he keep calling you? Is your house so big that you can't find one another?

>I had breakfast with one of the guys from Jive this morning, and he offered me some studio time in December. For… well, a solo album? Do I want to do that? I said yes, because I figured you'd be on the road, and I could get a jump on maybe laying down some tracks for the next Backstreet album, but… I've got a solo deal. I'm not sure that the guys want to do another album for a year or two.

Wow… do you want to do a solo album? I got offered a couple of solo deals a couple of years ago. I thought I could do anything I wanted… then I realized I couldn't do it without James. We're way too co-dependent. And I only write depressing songs without Jeremy around. And I couldn't dis Darien like that…

But that's me. Sorry. Too many interviews, I can't stop talking about myself. Anyway, do you want to do a solo album? Is Jive putting strings on it? Can you do whatever you want? Let's put this conversation on the agenda for tomorrow. ;->

>>Totally. Which means that most of Europe didn't happen, because I'm too tired to remember it to tell you about it.

>Yeah, two days of press and I don't know what we did. Sesame Street. I remember that.

How could you forget Elmo? Me, it was all a blur of translation and nothing familiar. I am starting to understand why you always like to eat McDonald's. It's familiar.

>VW commercial? No, you didn't tell me!

I didn't? Sorry! We're doing a VW commercial. Well, not us. We're doing a song. Oh, yeah, I need to be back in NYC 11/5. That gives us like two weeks. A week and a half. Whatever. But we've got studio time for VW and a Christmas song. MTV has decided to do a Christmas album, and we will be on it. We may even be the lead single, unless Willa's is better. ::snicker::

>Are you going to dye your hair when we go there next month? ;-> I like blonds…

I know. I don't think I'll look good as a blonde, baby. Does that mean you'll be leaving me soon?

>I'm tired, Rache. Don't worry. I was just blowing off steam. I'm home now, and in a couple of days I'll see you and I'm fine. It's all good.

All right… if you're sure.

>I just need you to be here.

Tomorrow! I can't wait!

>I don't want to think about them right now. I'll put it this way- there was no big good-bye scene. I left last, because I wanted to meet with Jive. I think the others were asked to the meeting, but they all fucked off last night.

Are you sure they were asked to be at the meeting, if Jive wanted to talk to you about your solo deal?

>You can't live your life as a role model. Believe me, I know.

Aw, you're a pretty upstanding citizen, bunny.

>Rache… imagine that said in my whinest voice.

I like the whiny voice!

>I really don't know JC. We're lumped together, but we're not friends, by any stretch. Whenever we are together, he sticks with his band and I stick with mine. I like Chris, he's pretty cool. He'll talk to anyone, and he's funny. JC is… quiet? I think he's shy. He's always nice, though. Justin can be an asshole, but JC isn't.

I haven't had the pleasure of meeting any of the others yet. Yes, Justin does seem like a bit of an ass.

>Yeah, he's a nice guy, I think. I've never seen him do anything mean. He seems… sincere? Is that a good word?

That's a very good word. That's what I'd use. He seems sweet and goofy to me.

>If James is falling for him, then he has to be a good guy, right? Because you've told me that James is very picky about his boyfriends, which is why he hasn't had many.

That is a very good point, bunny. James does have excellent taste. Michael was very cool.

>I don't think JC would be a dick to him, but there is that little thing about how he can't TELL ANYONE. If it's something real, should he want to tell?

Another good point. But maybe it's not serious, so that doesn't matter. Could you imagine the media frenzy JC coming out would cause?

>I love that people know we're together. I love seeing you in magazines or on TV and I want to tell everyone 'Look at this totally hot woman. She loves *me*."

Aw! That is very sweet. I have been known to buy teenybopper magazines for the pictures of you.

>>I personally find the idea sorta hot. I mean, its my best friend, so that part is weird, but JC? Yum. If boys can like two girls getting it on, can't girls like boys getting it on?

>Girls are prettier than guys, Rache. Guys looks silly naked.

I think naked boys are pretty! I especially think a naked JC would be pretty.

But not as pretty as you, of course!

>> >Oh, bunny, you crack me up. ;-> I'm sorry for freaking you out.

>But yet, you keep asking me questions!

I suck. Sorry.

>Sorry I'm not more help. Because I like James too, and he deserves a nice guy. Maybe then he'll stop bugging you all the time. ;->

Ask Michael or Jeremy. Doesn't work.

>I just found out that we have an actual day off in Japan. What should we do? They've got some stuff planned for us and the crew. Do you want to do that?

What's planned? Where will we be? I haven't had a chance to do any research and see where we'll be or anything.

>You don't sound really excited about that. You called with your flight times and sounded… I don't know. Maybe you're just tired. Tampa's okay, isn't it? Is it too soon to meet my friends? Maybe we should just spend the weekend by ourselves and catch up.

No, meeting your friends is fine. I'm sorry I sounded weird… I guess I'm just nervous. I want everyone to like me. And I'm not real fond of Vinnie, I have to admit. I've never met him, but it seems like whenever we have problems, it's because you're taking Vinnie's advice. Try and take Anna's advice from now on, okay? I can't wait to meet her.

>She is so cute, Rache. I talked to her for like 20 minutes, she asked me about all the Muppets. She's smart, though, she knows they're not real. She said Daddy told her that.

Her Daddy is a smart man. ;-> You won him over for real, ya know. He wrote me an email that you were very good with Ally on the phone. He was very impressed.

>I like that. But tonight, if you come back and call me, I'll be here, instead of working.

You must be hanging out with Aaron or something, because I just tried and got voicemail. That's fine, I need to go in about ten minutes.

>>And you have the prettiest blue eyes I have ever seen. ;->

>::blush::

oh, come on, all the little girls love your blue eyes! They are very nice eyes, Nick.

>> Absolutely. I always know precisely what I'm doing, Rache. I never fuck things up unless it's on purpose to make you laugh.

I'll remember that…

>>>And I really miss touching you, buttercup. Not just the sex stuff- although I miss that! - but just having you near me, or falling asleep with you. After Friday, can we promise to sleep together every night until you go back on tour?

>>Yes. We can do our best. Promise.

>I am really looking forward to that.

Me too… tomorrow night I'll be with you. Just one more night alone…

>So devoted I let you call me 'bunny',

Um, Nicky, darling… that was your idea. Remember? We were out to dinner that first week we were together and you told me you liked being called 'bunny'. Okay, maybe you were drunk, but it was your idea!

Love you-

Rachel

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